Monday, December 8, 2008

To the Pure...

To the pure all things are pure, but to the defiled and unbelieving nothing is pure;both their minds and their consciences are defiled. They profess to know God, but they deny him by their works. They are detestable, disobedient, unfit for any good work. Titus 1:15-16

Key verse out of my reading this morning and I did not have time to journal, so there you have it. Last night I fell into ritual and once again I find my actions contradicting what I profess to believe!
If we are those that know God then how we live must be directly related and reflective of our knowing. I need to know more for often my actions do not reflect whom I say is my Lord. To be a Christian is to be a small Christ, a representative of heaven, being the hands and feet of Jesus to this world.

If your members are one in the same with Christ then why do we mix Christ's members with that of a prostitutes!

Lord we need to know you more, I ask for your grace and your purity from the blood of your son. Do not look upon my impurity! Cover it with the blood of Jesus. Touch me today, that all I do lines up with you, my Lord, my king, father, savior, lover and friend. I want to represent you well.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Kicking and Screaming!


Ahhhhhhhh! gotta go, gotta go, gotta go go go! My mind screamed out this and that, tasks I need to attend to. Stress began to take over my mind, my heart started screaming in protest, and my body quietly put up its defense by refusing to wake. I am only three minutes into the day! Get dressed... run down the stairs... throw some breakfast together... start the coffee... turn on the Christmas tree lights and the fire... grab bible. journal. pen.... blanket. Ok! I am set, God thank you for a new day. I pray that you would wake up my body and my spirit. Break up the hard parts of my heart and speak! Help me to die to this selfish self and live in you. Let your joy be awakened in my heart and let it be my strength despite my body's aches and my minds weakness.

Romans 8:1-8 Key verses:
v5 For those who live according to the flesh SET THEIR MINDS on the things of the flesh, but those who live according to the spirit SET THEIR MINDS on the things of the spirit. v6 To SET THE MIND on the flesh is death, but to SET THE MIND on the spirit is life and PEACE.
This was what God gave me to focus on three days ago. It applies perfectly to right now. I love how he gives us what we need in perfect timing. My heart is stressed and heavy under the weight of practicalities and all of the little loose ends that have seemed to multiply more rapidly than I can tie them up. My heart feels like it is fraying apart and I cannot pinpoint the snag. This verse says that if my MIND IS SET on the things of the spirit then there is life and PEACE. Mind check, Jordan! Focus!

If you are feeling stressed or like you are about to explode from the mounting pressures of the season. STOP. DROP. Be still and know that God is God. Focus on him and SET YOUR MIND on the things of the spirit. I have found the best way to focus is to worship, it puts God back into perspective! He is still in control. Do not worry about anything but in prayer and petition offer up your requests to God.

Stress sucks!

Monday, December 1, 2008


Monday Tuesday WednesFriday
Sat and Sun I come undone!

A piece of last years poetry, accurately echoes how I am feeling today.
We go on breaks and stay up way to late,
then thrown back into the motions, while my emotions
find new fuel for there longing to be free from this pattern.
Six months two days, I gra du ate.
May 1, the fateful day we sign our lives away.
Or we may continue to flounder in some free flow pattern.
Make some money, hunt for a honey!
O the terrible rhythm and rhyme
how can our lives mine out meaning
in the midst of this menial....

Monday Tuesday wednesfriday
O blast! Here comes Thursday seekin revenge
Don't you hate it? despite best effortz
yesterdayz activitiez remain a distant memoriez crowded out already by the craziness of...
day to day to day to day.
One to two to the three to four
please sir, can I have some more?
More what?
Life! If I might have morsel to keep for the rainy day.

Bailout, word of the year but I get no attention!
Could you spare 2.4 million for a small intervention?
When does the political game reach he practical
beyond just some distant fame or just someone to blame.

I dont want to rant but do you feel you are stuck in some lame video game
jumping through hoops, level to level,
livin in a world of no emotion.
I shot you for bonus points.
Stole your gun and your girl.
just to feel good. It doesn't last
but at least I have some fleeting romance of adventure.

I walk through the hall ways and it seems that we have so wrapped ourselves in this false reality of worth and a warped sense of purpose that we live from bell to bell, check box to check box. The only excitement is when he broke up with her and she hung out with him and so and so said her brothers friends grandmas dog died so I am depressed. Have some sympathy! This is not real life people! I know! I have tasted and seen. this morning before the sun rose I met with love and he spoke worth over me! There is so much more to life then this

Monday Tuesday WednesFriday!
There is a friend that loves beyond what I could describe
A presence of peace beyond understanding
purpose that gives you drive and hunger for life!

his name is love and believe it or not he is not abstract, he is not hard to get a hold of, there are no preconditions, I would love to introduce you...

his name is Jesus.