Lullaby

Lullaby
C#m B A2
Lullaby oh goodnight my friend
C#m B A2
Wont you stay here beside me now
C#m B A2
And I will sing you melodies that
C#m B A2
Have never been sung before


Lullaby oh goodnight my friend

Let me stay here beside you now

And I will sing in harmony with

The beatings of your heart

E B C#m A2
I will sing you a song tonight, tonight
E B C#m A2
I will sing it loud and strong tonight,

Or if you’d rather I will just


Lullaby oh goodnight my friend

I will sing you a song tonight

And I will pour out a whispered prayer

For you to hold me tight


Take me there to the place of reality in grace
Take me deeper pull me closer now (X2)

All I Want

All I Want

Verse 1 G F#/G C
I cannot sleep tonight
G F#/G C
I don’t know why
G F#/G C
Its not that I’m thinking
G F#/G C Am
It’s more that I don’t know what to think anymore
Am
Anymore.

Verse 2 G F#/G C
Feeling poor and lonely
G F#/G C
There is a draught in my dreaming
G F#/g C
This heart is hard and hurting
G F#/G C
Would you please trade with me your magic seeds
Am G F#/G G
So I can climb, Into the sky

Chorus Am C G
All I want to do… is what your doing
Am C G
All I want to say… is what your saying
Am C G F#/G C
And All I want to be….yeah, is you have for me

Verse 3 G F#/G C
Castle in the clouds
G F#/g C
I will come to you there
G F#/G C
When I close my eyes

G F#/G C
And stow away upon the melodies you sing to me
Am
Sing to me in the night
Am
In the night

Verse 4 G F#/G C
Speak to me softly in the night
G F#/G C
I want to hear your voice in my ear (X2)

A New Week, A New Day, A New Moment.... A New Season.

I love the morning so much it drives me to sleep at ridiculously early hours. I sacrifice movies, parties, and a bunch late night hang time to be able to beat the sun up. The bible says that there are new mercies every morning, and wise people have said, "Early to bed early to rise makes a man healthy, wealthy, and wise.  Those are not what have inspired me to rise early but because I do it just  supports my strangeness. There is something about the sun breaking through the darkness, something about a fresh start that puts the yesterday underneath you. I know I rant about the morning and how it inspires me often but it is not only a new morning, it is a new week. Last week carried many worries, although like most worries most never came to fruition. There seemed an endless amount of things to do and time seemed to be endlessly fleeting. When a friend and I talked about the stress of school, the emotional trauma that occurred during the break, and the giant deadlines that threatened to change our future, we came up with this picture. It is like you are tied to a treadmill that is cranked up just over the thresh hold level, just to fast to maintain. I love thresh hold training and workouts where you push your body right up to that breaking point but in life, not so much. Yes the hard stuff develops endurance, strength, and power like nothing else can but when it happens in life you don't see an end of the work out. there is no stop watch to pace off of, no defined finish line, or summit to the hill. When there is no end to  the speed  you begin to fall apart mentally as you anticipate the wall. The wall as runners know is when lactic acid and other wastes are flooding into your legs faster than your body can filter it out and all f the sudden you crash. Your legs feel like led or like you are running underwater. If you really push it your body will go into temporary paralysis. Most of us cannot push that hard because mentally we freak ourselves out before our body reaches that point.
 Last week was like running at just above thresh hold with no end in sight. My body was probably ok but my mind was tweekin. It is a new week! A fresh start and I have grown even from my experiences last week. I learned that when the eyes in your head cannot see a light at the end of the tunnel you are not allowed to freak out because we have faith. You turn to the eyes of your heart. One of the things that has been amazing me lately is the thought of Joy in Brokeness. Paul said, "Our heart break but we still have joy." It is all a perspective thing. Last week from my perspective I was going to crash and in turn I did. This week I have the same stressors but from a faith perspective all things will work together for the good of those who love him. (God) I read this morning I believe in Luke twelve some words that I need to remind myself of much more often. In summery: Do not worry about what you will eat or drink, God provides for the ravens and are you not worth much more than birds. Then do not worry about what you will wear, look at the flowers of the field and the grass, even Solomon in all his splendor could not compare. God open the eyes of my heart and let me see like that!
It is a new day, a new week, and a new season. Track training with the team starts today. I am inspired and ready to grow in my fitness and to lead my team! I know though that to lead even when you cannot see with the eyes in your head that the eyes of your heart need to be tuned in to what really matters.

New Years Resolution

I resolve in this new year to live barbarically, to run the back roads, and walk the narrow road. I resolve to run at new intensities both physically and spiritually. I commit to set aside 2 hours a day to dig into the word, pray, and journal. To fast one day a week and whenever the spirit leads. To be faithful in the practical of my room, my house, my grades. I resolve to run at new intensities both physically and spiritually. Begin running marathons and setting up habits that I want to carry through college and into the rest of life. To spend the rest of the time I have in Bend praying for, serving, and loving well my family. I resolve this year to return to my first love, remember from where I have fallen, and do the works I did at first. Rev 2:4-5 Sing unashamed love songs, new songs, and unfinished-unpolished songs of worship. To go back to playing drums and rhythm. Return to the childlike faith and live out the passion that has been muffled and beaten down in the past three years. To love because I have been so wonderfully loved!